Trust

I can't tell anyone what's on my mind. I just can't trust anyone anymore. Damn it all.

I guess it all started in 7th grade. I liked this kid, and all my friends knew, so they were always being obvious about my feelings. Like they would hint at it to that dude and make me do things I didn't want to do. Luckily he was really dense. They ended up telling him though.

9th grade came around, and I liked another dude. And again, everyone knew and would mess around with me. Honestly I only told one person. Gossip spreads fast in a network. I thought, screw it all, and got over him before anything could happen. One of my friends was dying to tell the dude since he was good friends with the dude. I told him not to. Everyday. He didn't. But I still can't trust him much.

10th grade. I'm fucking in love. I've only told one person so far, but I don't know him irl. We're just good buddies. I don't know what to do. Maybe I should just tell them. They don't know the guy anyways. But still. Can't trust. It hurts too much.